Indulgence

Atlantis and El Dorado

Chantal Kreviazuk from What If It All Means Something (written by Chantal Kreviazuk and Raine Maida)
It's hard for me to know
Sometimes I feel like letting go
But what if it all means something
(I wanna know)

I turn around and I see nothing there. One is hidden and I cannot reach. The other is fluttering about, sometimes close, sometimes very far. What happens if I decide I don't need this right now. I'm about to make another life decision -- what if all this uncertainty, I decide, to just be rid of it. You may not know me, so you don't know that I deserve better than this. I deserve being on the level. How far do you expect me to go without nothing to ensure me that there will be something there when I arrive? I'm not even sure where I am going. I'm not unaccustommed to go chasing after Atlantis or El Dorado; but when I do, I do this for myself. In this occasion, I'm doing this for you. I don't even know if you're there. I could spend my time doing other things, better things for me.

This is not what I wanted. I might as well be stepping through mirrors. I guess it was my mistake for really wanting it. Well, I can wait for a little bit more. I just hope when next I turn around, something is there behind me. Something I can touch; something I know is real.

(picture taken in Boracay, 2004 by Berna)

posted by wanggo @ 11:09 AM