Indulgence

the little things that make everything okay

Max Lucado
Forgiveness is unlocking the door to set someone free... and realizing that you were the prisoner!

Take a deep breath. It's all out, isn't it? Nothing really lasts for long that you don't hold on tightly to. Learn to let it go and everything will be fine.

A little walk in the drizzle, while holding on to your jacket tightly for warmth with one hand; the other hand smoking a cigarette lit with a brand new lighter. A 3-piece Oreo pack where you eat the cookie first and then the cream after. Getting an invite to play poker even when it's been a long while and you feel that you aren't part of anything anymore. Getting a text from someone you don't really know that well but the way things sound, you are someone worth getting to know more of. Good music blaring from the speakers. Having money in your wallet to get around, to buy little non-things that will get you by. The knowledge that the next day, you still have something to do and so there's a sense of purpose in your day-to-day. The knowledge that there's something to look forward to and the facts: Christmas in Bacolod with the whole family, New Year's in Boracay, astrology and numerology stating that next year will be better than the past 2 years. A plan to go to India that might actually be realised in the coming months.

These are little things, really, that reminds me that not everything is going to the dogs and that there is still some things that can make me smile, or at the very least, wipe the frown off my face. I thought I was done with all the drama but apparently, it has its ways of coming back. And old habits are hard to break. It's not that hard to smile, now, is it?

posted by wanggo @ 1:44 AM